Catching up for Xmas

Sorry for the sudden absence from here, family stuff and work have killed my energy! Needless to say, it hasn't really felt like Christmas at all to me. My grandma left to live in the Philippines and the house hasn't been the same since.
I grew up with her around and the house was always full of sound and the smell of food cooking but now its quiet and cold. I resented her a lot because I'm the kind of person that gets really stressed out when there's a lot of different, loud sounds all about and now I miss it.

I went to see her off at the airport and it was quite possibly the saddest I've ever felt. For those unaware, she had broken her hip early November and while at the hospital, they found stage 4 cancer in her lungs and they gave her ~9 months to live. Everyone was crying except for me, I just got incredibly teary-eyed. We left the airport at 5am, I had work that afternoon. I woke up feeling like crap and once I got to work, I couldn't keep my composure and ended up crying like a big baby and went home after two hours.
She was the one who always put out the poinsettias, put up the christmas tree, etc. Neither me or my dad felt like putting the tree up, so the few presents we had were just on an end table. Money has gotten exceptionally tight what with my grandma's hospital bills coming in now.


Work has been eating up all my time and its incredibly unfortunate. I'm really excited that I was finally able to sign up for classes, albeit I was only able to get into two. I'll have 3 days off out of the week so it'll be nice to have down time and maybe be able to focus on more projects.

WIWT/TGIF

I'm not gong to waste any time playing "catch up", my online life is scattered on way too many platforms to update them all with the same thing! I'm hoping to get into the actual groove of using this as a real blogging platform~!

I was supposed to go to sleep at around ~12pm last night, but I didn't end up falling asleep until around 5am! I just had so many thoughts running through my mind; I'm so excited for school, I finally have a solid idea for my first zine, my hands are tingling with creativity! I continued going from my bedroom (which my boyfriend likes to keep as cold as possible) and the living room that has a space heater (our A/C is out).

I woke up at 7:30 and got ready for school, full of excitement! It had been a good long while since I've been on campus. I was only there for about 20 mins and I was told that I needed to bring proof of my meningitis shot and I have to fill out a form that I've already filled out for academic dismissal. It's not tough or anything, it just sucks that I have to wait until Monday to sign up for my classes... hopefully there will be slots open in the classes I want!

I went into work at 10 and we had a DJ there. Although his mixing was garbage and the songs were just typical Top 40s, it was a nice change of pace from the repeating playlist that the store has. Everybody agreed that the change of music made working a lot more pleasant. Business was pretty steady, time went by pretty fast because I was in such a great mood.

After I got out of work, I tried on a few things and then headed on my way home. It's payday, so I was tempted to stop by places to buy clothes, makeup, and/or art supplies but I resisted! I'm trying to save my money for Black Friday... I'm planning on buying my boyfriend's christmas present, a scanner/printer, and that's it. They're having such GREAT deals on PS3s and I don't really know if I should put myself in a financial hole until next payday and buy it... I had originally planned to buy myself one after Christmas but this is such a great deal!

Onto what I wore today;

Circle Scarf: Urban Outfitters

Jacket: Forever 21

Shirt: American Apparel

Skirt: Forever 21

Tights: American Apparel

Shoes: Lolita Baby Angel

I always get such strange looks/lots of compliments whenever I wear these tights out! They were my first ever purchase from American Apparel, so glad that they've lasted this long!

There's a few purchases I need to do, but fingers crossed that I can control my shopaholic tendencies until Black Friday!